★ NADZIR[A]HYEEN :D

Hello . Ahyeen here . I just felt the need to update this dusty blog of ours . So jyeah . Anyway , i dont feel so good today . No , im not sick . Just dont have the mood . Ader lah kan reason aku . Korang tak perlu tau lah . Takya keypoh . Hmm . ZY knows whats up . She's just telling me to relax . But i can't . :( Sadly , i can't . ZY , maner kau ? Aku rindu kau . Aku nak jumper kau . Aku nak kau bilang aku everything is going to be alright . Aku nak kau stop my tears from falling . Aku nak kau hold my heart back into place . Aku nak kau pat sini . :'(

I can't handle this any longer alone , ZY ... I feel like im dying bit by bit now . No , im not exaggerating . :'( I dont feel good , ZY . Why does this always happen to me ? Aper salah aku uat , ZY ? Thanks for telling me to chill k , ZY . I appreciate it ... I appreciate it alot . Guess i can't do anything anymore . I wanna avoid everything now . I wanna just be alone ... I want to avoid him especially . Because i dont feel like meeting him . Because my hearts' busted . Because i just dont want to meet anybody . Ok done here . K bye . Dont find me ...

And i was dumb enough to trust your every word . God ! So much for all the empty promises and i love you-s . I thought you really were different but as it turns out , you're just the same . I shouldn't have seen it before that you were just there for a moment and not longer . I shoudn't have seen it that you were just being "nice" . I thought you actually meant it . I thought you meant everything you say . I trusted you . Cause you were the reason i was happy when im feeling down . You made me happy . Just with your presence , it could lift my spirits up .

For the past few weeks , i've noticed a change in our attitude towards me . But still , i kept an open mind thinking you're probably busy with school or even work since you've told me before that you've started working . But recently , i've found out whats with your sudden change of attitude . And it sucks . I repeat . It sucks . Alot . You've got someone else . Nice . And i realised what happened to all those i love you-s , all those promises that you wont leave , all those times that you said you loved me etc . Guess those were merely a phase , huh ? Nothing was ever real with you . And everytime i confronted you about this , you keep telling me that you're sincere about everything and that you're busy with work .

But since when did work involve spending time with someone else ? Hmms . Whatever with it ok . Cause im gonna learn from my mistake . I'll be a better person . I wont fall for anything you say to me . Even if you wanna meet me , i'll meet but trust me , i wont be the same . Ever . Thanks anyway for being in my life for that period of time i was in a rough spot with your brother . Thanks anyway for showing that you did care about me (i think) . Thanks anyway for being my friend back then . Tc .